Sucks to be me

Here’s hell. My professor recently told me that I need to register for 12 research credits AND 12 dissertation credits next year. That is over $6500.00! Now I went to the office to confirm this, and the women says “your committee chair should have told you do register for the research credits as you went along.” Great. So glad he kept me abreast of this. For example, I am currently in a class now that I took just to maintain my full time status. I could have spent that $800.00 on research. I am not happy. How the hell am I going to finish this? They require 12 credits per two semesters, and I don’t have this money. None. Nada. Nope. I am going to have to look for scholarship money, and I think my chair should help me do this. Now get me right here, the man does not always come through, and this is the straw. I’ve asked for things, I’ve requested things, and I usually don’t get them. I gave him an article to read and critique three years ago now, and I have given it to him again and again. He has never read this. I have been patient. I am done. Other students of his have complained about this and other things. My comments are justified, and I do not apologize for this.

I pray I can get a scholarship. Perhaps GLSEN would fund some of this, or the college. I’ve tried in the past and failed. I owe college money back, and I will for awhile. I need to consolidate. I need to finish. But this is more intrinsic than anything. What am I going to get out of this? A title. Now that’s it. I cannot get more money. If I do not go to higher ed, then there’s no reason to even finish this journey. Is there?